02-14-04 - 4:52 p.m.

Ugh, I've just spent the last two hours on Homestar Runner. Oh well. I guess time flies when you're having fun. When I first saw it, I didn't see what was so great about it, but today it sort of grew on me.

My job hunt is on hold while I wait to hear from Crossway. My friend told me it might be a couple of weeks because they're busy going to a conference and things. If I were out of a job, I'd be doing more, but unless something unexpected happens I won't be underemployed until July. That's when one of my part-time jobs will end. But everything's up in the air, so who knows what will happen? I would explain what I'm talking about, but I don't feel like it right now. My mind is mush from watching so much web animation. Plus I will have a better idea of what's going on next week. Yesterday was the big board of trustees meeting to decide what's going to happen with the BGC library, among other things, since our funding was cut. So next week we should find out what they concluded. Oh, and the Tyndale position was filled on Friday before I even got to turn in the application, but that's okay with me because it was in the fiction department, and that didn't interest me.

I've been social again. Last Saturday I went to my friend Erin's apartment and talked for five hours about Crossway and all that. Then Wednesday I met my editor friend at Oberweis and talked about Tyndale and editing until Oberweis closed. Then last night Michael, Mike, Julie, Erin, and I went to Chili's and then to Erin's apartment to play Settlers of Catan. Then Michael and Mike talked until 1 am while the rest of us floated to la-la land. Erin is going to Panama with the Peace Corps. And John, who was not there because he is in Baltimore, is going to Colombia at around the same time. Coincidence? Yes.

Anyway, every time I do more social things than usual or am otherwise busy, I realize that however good it might seem to me from the outside to be that kind of person, I really would not want to live that way all the time. I like to have my evenings to myself, and I like living at a relaxed pace. I like doing things with my friends, too, but all the time would be too much.

Oh yeah, I wanted to say something about self-confidence. I may have given the impression last time that I have little confidence in my ability to be an editor or a copy editor or whatever. That isn't it. It is perfectly obvious to me that I can do that. What I don't know is whether I can convince other people that I can edit when I have no direct experience as an editor. So whenever someone else is convinced, I feel more hopeful.