07-28-04 - 10:37 p.m.

I'm down to my last three days of living at this house, and I am so ready to be gone. I don't have that much stuff to move, and I've already moved some of it, but still when I look around I think, "Will it really happen?" I think it's the fact that moving always seems like a monumental task combined with the fact that I've lived here for two years, and so it seems like a permanent condition now. I will always live in this room with this furniture arrangement. Yet abstractly I know that four days from now, things will be completely different.

I also start my new job on Monday. I'm slightly uncertain about it because it's a new situation, but I think I'll enjoy being there. I don't really think of Livingstone in terms of fluff, to correct an earlier entry. I was just overreacting. They publish Bible-related products, and that is a worthwhile pursuit. As my professor friend said to me, they're trying to get Scripture out there.

Still, that's not my main purpose in life right now, so I'm continuing the interview process with IVP because they are more in line with my goals, both short- and long-term. I have an initial three-month commitment at Livingstone, so if IVP offers me something and can wait that long, I will have to make a decision. If I had to choose right now, I'd go with IVP. But in three months, who knows? Things could change.